she laugh at her friends. her friends saying that his friend got depressed by her relationship.
well. for her, wtf?! you're precious girl. you don't have to be with that guy that don't appreciate you. surround yourself with something that can make you happy.
and his friend found someone new. the girl is happy now.
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but now,
she ask herself.
are you depressed honey?
the truth is pain. and yes. she is depressed.
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it is not just simple stress. its killing her inside.
her family. her friend.
ops. first of all, she dont have friends. no she dont have anyone that she can call friend.
the only person she can hurt is her boyfriend.
he is everything. she mean it. like, everythingggg
it freaks her out if he, her love, leave her and found someone's new. he'll suicide.
she promise you.
he is beyond expectation. he is her everything.
if she stressed her pussy out, he is the one who keep her calm.
can you be you for like a whole year with a girl who loves to eat but keep saying "im getting fat. no. im fat" "oh i dont want to eat" "this big ass makes me feel bad" "this isnt me, i dont want to be fat" "why i cnt be petty just like her" "can u see this? oh i hate myself" "damn this pimples"
but the real is, she is getting fat&ugly because of psychology. she keeps remind herself that she can't be fat. its like, she wants to be normal but accidentally it leads her to self-destruction.
the girl keep being childish and turn into a-body-shaming person but her love of life, still, talking nice to her, be a proud ass to have a "fat&pimples" girlf. for him, it is normal thing for girl. nothing major.
well this is the strongest reason she believe why she dont have any friend(:
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talking about her family. they are piece of shit.
only her mum keeps holding her hand. keep supporting her girl. keep telling her girl to be shine like star.
not the same as her siblings nor her father.
they are the real silent killer.
her sibs keep remind her of how ugly she is now.
"damn gurl ur ass are wide as the tv screen" "hey!just dont look at the mirror so long, u still ugly" "why u eat this fat pig?" "euww acne. it gross" and her dad laughs till cough. she feels bad.
her dad never speaks properly to her.
her dad forget the way to treat her daughter like a princess. instead, her father talks to her like how people talk to dog. yes. her father shout at her.
"woof! move away you ugly-big-fat-ass" "oh now u have boyf? well he must be blind to date a girl like u"
there you are. exactly how depressed started in her house. by keep telling the black swan how ugly she is.
she keeps praying. she keeps searching. for a new brand life from god. it is impossible to found a new family she said. but she hope, there is someone who can treat her like princess, just like normal families out there, because her boyfriend just make up his mind to leave her.
because he sicks of that "fat story"
